why do they do it?

why do guys do it...

why do they build you up into the most happiest thing, then stop talking , txt msging, IMing you..etc.

i was honestly really happy for a certain point in my time. i mean actually happy. I wanna know why..why does it seem like its me getting let down?

ITSNOTFAIR.

my first "non private post" in a 2 weeks or so.

i think everyone should know this.

I'VE FOUND HAPPYNESS!=]

i'll give you the heads up, latley ive been nothing but depressed & confussed about life. well i was unsure about him..no i couldnt doubt myself that he isnt the one for me! i thank god for finally making me happy again!!

ahh. i want this feeling to last.

well for good news, i have gotten over my last dilemma..when ever i see them together..i try not to think anything of it. There is a reason why we are not together..but whatever i'm over it.

iv'e ust been thinking about how lonely i feel lately, my friends are changing..and it would be so good to just have a guy there to lean on to & be there for me. Yeah i get love from my friends and family; but not  that kind.

i'm waiting for mr. perfect<3

Valentines day is comming up..i'm considering saying "fuck it" but then again theres a part of me that really wants to be with him.  I don't know what to do, AHH i hate guys. why do they always give mixed signals???!

And you know what, fuck her too. She knew I liked him, and who the hell does she think she is trying to rub it in my face that their "talking". Stupid bitches.  fucking fuck it!

GRR! now that anger is released..

have a great day.

And if you or her is reading this. Fuck you guys. I don't give  a shit. I hope she gets pregnat with your ugly ass kids.

WELL, im going bacj to this xanga name. i dont like my other one

Wow today has been pretty good. I went to Dunkin Donuts with my friend and we got french vanilla coffees and donuts. Then i took my sis to the doctor for a physical. The best part of my day was that in the morning, like around 11- 11:30 i talked to someone very very special. And that person was... well lets just leave it at HIM. HE is so nice though i can't believe it. we talked for like an hour. Oh and i did not mention, about my 68 in s.s. my teacher came out in the hallway with me and he said that a lot of people failed and i got a pretty good grade compared to other people and he said that one quiz grade will not affect your average like if you get a 100 on your notebook it would bring you up to an 89-90.  And he hugged me really tight and said its fine dont worry about it. I love my s.s. teacher im so glad i have him for homeroom too. I feel so loving right now I feel like I love everybody.